Life : More Funerals than Weddings

My suit hangs in the wardrobe. It glares at me through the partially open door. The spectre at the feast, waiting patiently for the next one to fall. The finest tailor, the sweatshop in Asia, first Lieutenant to King Death either way. “A splendid send off” “Didn’t he look smart” “The old boy would have…

Life : The Tension of Tenses

My words are neither in the past or in the moment of just now Not distant recollections or the contemporary holy cow Genius premonitions are not my stock and trade The words that leave my mouth find your ears another day Janet wrote that tenses were like chalk writing on water,  every year that passes…

Life : Where were you when JFK was shot?

I sit in a push chair. The world towers above. Batons and shields , Policemen and barriers, Robert Muldoon and a rugby regime , Home before the whistle blows and any action is seen. A momentous revolution, Our side has won , A landslide result and Muldoon is done, Defeat from the jaws of victory,…

Life : Brian Rodney Bell

When I was young and sprightly an old man lived up on the hill above me. He would labour half way up the ascent and rest on a ledge of ancient concrete. His tales were of our literary giants , fallen heroes of our national identity. His own part a footnote to history , no…

Life : My Grandfather’s Teapot

I meet each dawn with my grandfather’s teapot , old and blue and stained with the scars of several thousand days I live in the lee of the hill he lived on for 40 years, I start each day with a tea ritual banishing sleep away, and I think of him I think of his…

Dead Dads Don’t Listen

Dead dads don’t listen , even if they did when they drew air We keep on having the conversations even though they are not here Dead dads don’t forgive , even if they did when they still lived We keep asking for forgiveness , even though they have nothing to give Dead dads don’t have…

Food : Fermented Gallows Beans

These fermented spiced beans are inspired by both Suān jiāngdòu , the Chinese lacto fermented bean dish and Fansi Nu Shaak, the Gujarati green bean curry. The name comes from using google translate to find an English version of Fansi Nu Shaak. Are beans really referred to as a ‘Plant of Gallows’ in Gujarati ?…

Food : Grandma Win’s Bread and Butter Pickles

My maternal grandmother Win was a great cook. My paternal grandmother Joan probably was too but by the time I came along dementia had rendered her an absence in my existence so I never got to experience that. Win made amazing roasts , fantastic picnics and the baking tin was never empty. One of my…

Life : Haven

I sit in my garden , my feet are bare, the dog luxuriates in autumn beams, my shoulder is burnt, my spirit is sagging, both will heal with time The house forms a wall , a deep rampart A division from the outer world , my phone is a port hole, a temptation to ignore…

Food : Scrumper’s Apple Cake

To scrump is to liberate apples that are otherwise going to waste, or from some points of view to steal them. However let us not get weighed down in the vagaries of the law.  I make it my business to know where the apple trees are in the village and collect the windfalls for cider…