A life time ago and I lie in bed , your body entwined in mine , hours old, the grey glowering sky outside just highlights the warmth in here, such a precious delicate bundle , such new horizons, the promise of everything, more intimate than I could imagine , nothing since has compared, and I have loved so strong ,too strong , till my body bleeds but little brother still nothing compares to holding you when your world was measured in hours , something we shared and yet which only I remember , that which only I can remember, I don’t know your first recollection, maybe you do, before the funerals , and the holidays, before strokes , and before dementia , for you before time, and before the world left its scars, on me and on you . And before what comes next , no one knows how the stories end, but little brother, in justice you will be the last of us and know that you were loved, you are loved , now, tomorrow and a lifetime ago as we lie in bed.